Today, I dared to weight myself on the bathroom scale: 188 Lbs. I have regained the 10 Lbs I lost between the end of January and March 2020 (178 Lbs on April 1st). All my efforts, the diet, good healthy products, exercises, gym, walks, vanished. I feel really discouraged, disgusted by what happened and the lost of control, not only from me, but the total lost of control of the world.
When I intensely work, my brain craves for sugar. Also for a break, with a bite of sweet. When I work for 10 hours in a day, my brain needs food and fuel. When I go to the grocery store and do not find good vegetables or the fruits I wanted, or more over, the prices I used to have, I kinda give up and buy unhealthy choices, bread, pizza, ice creams, fried Asian food, etc... I have been dreaming of eating Japanese food, sushi, but nothing is still currently available.
I know I have to stop this infernal hurricane and go back to a regular healthy life. I am so depressed and not motivated for anything ! Life is just so upside down now !
I will probably get to that point soon, and painfully will lose those extra, then the rest.... But so much pain and distress since !
Here the picture of my breakfasts prep: 1/2 cup of rolled oat, 1 teaspoon of chia seeds, one little hand of almonds, water and a pinch of soy milk, overnight in the fridge, served with few berries in the morning, along with my coffee. That is a good solid breakfast of less than 400 cal. At least, starting the day in a healthy way....
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